The final week of the college was filled with a bitter-sweet air. The canteen was louder than usual, filled with students signing each other's shirts and making hollow promises to stay in touch.
Nandini and Dev sat at their usual corner table, the one with the wobbly leg that Dev always fixed by shoving a folded napkin under it.
Nandini stirred her cold coffee, watching the students chatter around. She was wearing a simple white kurti, her hair tied back, looking more relaxed than she had in months.
"I hope you know, this is not a date."
She said suddenly, pointing her straw at him. Dev, who was leaning back with his usual effortless grace, let out a soft laugh. He was holding a cup of steaming hot chai.
"Tumhare har 'not a date' ke peeche ek 'date' hi chhupi hoti hai, Nandini. It's a serious case of denial. Psychology ki student ho, itna toh samajhti ho na?"
(Behind every ‘not a date’ of yours there a ‘date’ hidden, Nandini….You’re a psychology student, you must understand this?)
Nandini rolled her eyes. She took a sip of her drink and winced.
"Coffee kitni kadwi hai aaj."
(The coffee is bitter today.)
Dev reached out and took her glass, taking a sip from her straw without even asking. He made a face and pushed it back toward her.
"Tumhe pata hai? Conditioning is real. Pavlov was a genius."
(You know?)
Nandini arched an eyebrow.
"Ab Pavlov kaha se aa gaya?"
(Where did Pavlov come from?)
"Classical conditioning, strawberry,"
Dev said, leaning forward, his eyes fixing on hers with that familiar, bold intensity.
"Pichle chhe mahino mein, maine itni coffee tumhare saath pee hai ki ab mere dimaag mein coffee ki khushbu aur tumhare nakhre link ho gaye hain. Ab jab bhi main kahin coffee ki smell sunghunga, mujhe tumhare wahi purane dialogues yaad aayenge. 'Dev, focus!'... 'Dev, you're late!'... 'Dev, tum bilkul serious nhi ho!'"
(In the past six months, I have had so many coffees with you that the smell of coffee is linked with your tantrums in my mind. Whenever I will smell coffee, I will remember your dialogues….’Dev, you’re not serious at all!’)
Nandini felt the familiar warmth creeping up her neck. She looked away, focusing on a group of juniors laughing nearby.
"Toh achha hai na. Tumhe meri yaad aayegi toh thoda discipline mein rahoge. Discipline is something you clearly lacked before you met me."
(It’s good. You will be disciplined if you remember me.)
"Yaad toh aayegi."
(I will remember you.)
Dev murmured, his voice losing its teasing edge for a split second.
"Par discipline ke liye nahi. I think I've been conditioned to look for you every time a door opens. My brain expects a sharp comeback every time I say something stupid. Tumne meri life ki poori wiring hi change kar di hai."
(But not for discipline….You have changed the entire wiring of my life.)
Nandini felt her throat tighten. The conditioning was mutual.
She realized that she, too, would never be able to sit in a library again without looking at the empty chair opposite her, waiting for a boy with a half-charged laptop to walk in and ruin her focus.
The hallways were quiet now. Their project had been submitted, and the task was officially over. Dev realized he had left his phone in the HOD's office where he submitted their project.
"Ruko, main do minute mein aaya. Don't go anywhere."
(Wait, I will come in two minutes.)
He said, pointing at her as if he expected her to vanish.
"Kahi nahi ja rahi."
(I am not going anywhere.)
She replied. Dev rushed away and Nandini walked over to the desk where their stuff was scattered. Dev's notepad was kept there, the one he always carried but rarely let her see. It looked worn out, the spiral binding slightly bent.
'I should give this to him', she thought. But curiosity, the primary trait of any psychology student, got the better of her.
She flipped it open, expecting to see messy diagrams of workplace hierarchies or half-finished bibliography notes.
What she found instead made her heart stop.
The first few pages were indeed about their thesis. But as she flipped further, the handwriting changed. It became neater, more thoughtful. There were no more dates or titles. Just observations.
October 12th: Nandini bites the back of her blue pen when she's stuck on a paragraph. She's done it five times today. Note: Don't tell her, she'll probably stab me with it.
Nandini felt a small smile break across her face. She flipped to the next page.
November 4th: Her ears. They are a barometer for her mood. When she's actually mad, they stay pale. But when I flirt with her? They turn this specific shade of pink, like a sunset. It's the most honest thing about her.
A tear pricked the corner of Nandini's eye. She turned another page, and another.
December 20th: She thinks she's a baddie because she's witty. But I saw her today helping that junior who was crying in the corridor. She gave the girl her own chocolate and then walked away like nothing happened. She has a heart made of gold, hidden under ten layers of sarcasm. I need to find a way to reach the eleventh layer.
January 15th: We sat in silence for an hour today. She didn't complain once. I think she's finally comfortable with me. Or maybe she's just tired. Either way, I could sit like this for the next fifty years.
February 28th: The jhumkas. She wore them today. And her beautiful looks ten times more beautiful in that kajal. I almost forgot how to speak. I think I'm in trouble. Serious, deep, Industrial-Psychology-can't-fix-this kind of trouble.
The last entry was dated from the night they finished their project in the library.
March 30th: Project over. 110 pages. But the real thing is that I didn't just partner with her for a degree. I partnered with her for life. I just haven't told her yet.
Nandini stood there, the notepad trembling in her hands. All the times she had thought he was being lazy or distracted, he had actually been studying her. Every shameless comment, every bold move, it wasn't just a game to him. It was a discovery.
She heard the sound of footsteps. Dev was walking back, tossing his phone in the air. He stopped when he saw her holding the notepad. For the first time in six months, Dev looked genuinely panicked.
"Nandini... that... you weren't supposed to read that."
He said, his voice unusually high. He walked over quickly, reaching for the book, but she held it against her chest, her eyes bright with unshed tears.
"Tumne... tumne yeh sab kab likha?"
(You…when did you write this?)
She asked, her voice soft. Dev rubbed the back of his neck, looking at his feet.
"Pehle din se. I'm a researcher, remember? I like to observe interesting subjects."
(From day one.)
"Main tumhari subject hoon?"
(I am your subject?)
She asked, taking a step closer to him. Dev looked up, his eyes meeting hers. The vulnerability in them was startling. He didn't try to hide it anymore.
"Nahi. Tum meri reality ho. Maine kaha tha na, main jhoot nahi bolta. Everything in that book is the truth. Every observation, every detail."
(You are my reality. I told you, I don’t lie.)
Nandini looked down at the notepad and then back at him. She realized that his boldness wasn't just a lack of filter, it was a lack of fear. He wasn't afraid to see her, and he wasn't afraid to be seen by her.
"Tum bohot ajeeb ho, Dev."
(You are really weird, Dev.)
She whispered, a single tear finally rolling down her cheek. Dev reached out, his thumb gently catching the tear.
He held her face with a tenderness that made her entire world feel still.
"Ajeeb toh hoon. Tumhe handle karne ke liye thoda ajeeb toh hona padega."
(I am weird. I have to be a little weird to handle you.)
They stood there in the quiet room.
"Ab aage ka plan kya hai, Mr. Researcher?"
(What is the plan ahead, Mr. Researcher?)
Nandini asked, a tiny bit of her wit returning through her watery smile. Dev leaned in, his forehead resting against hers, his voice a warm promise in the silent room.
"Observation phase khatam, Nandini. Now we move to the practical application."
(Observation phase is over, Nandini.)

















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